Tuesday, January 31, 2012
The anger
It's what's behind the desire to say "Fuck it". The little voice saying "It always turns out the same, you give until there is nothing left only to watch them leave." I want to believe it's different this time, but past experience and the similarities in the way I'm being treated are making it soo hard.
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Friday, January 27, 2012
Phantom...
Night-time sharpens,
heightens each sensation
Darkness stirs and wakes imagination
Silently the senses abandon their defences ...
Slowly, gently night unfurls its splendour
Grasp it, sense it - tremulous and tender
Turn your face away
from the garish light of day,
turn your thoughts away
from cold, unfeeling light -
and listen to the music of the night ...
Close your eyes and surrender to your
darkest dreams!
Purge your thoughts of the life
you knew before!
Close your eyes,
let your spirit start to soar!
And you'll live
as you've never lived before ...
heightens each sensation
Darkness stirs and wakes imagination
Silently the senses abandon their defences ...
Slowly, gently night unfurls its splendour
Grasp it, sense it - tremulous and tender
Turn your face away
from the garish light of day,
turn your thoughts away
from cold, unfeeling light -
and listen to the music of the night ...
Close your eyes and surrender to your
darkest dreams!
Purge your thoughts of the life
you knew before!
Close your eyes,
let your spirit start to soar!
And you'll live
as you've never lived before ...
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Saturday, January 21, 2012
~sigh~ Another ruined.
Underworld: Awakening...as we all expected they left it very open for yet another. The quality of story line left something to be desired, it felt like what should have been 15 minutes of a film stretched into a full length movie. Unfortunately, this series has fallen victim to the quest for the almighty dollar.
Friday, January 20, 2012
One of those things.
It's one of the things about moving...You always find things that you had either forgotten you had, or never knew you did in the first place. I opened a box of paperwork and files last night that evidently hadn't been touched in many years.
I wish I hadn't.
So, if I don't answer my phone or don't respond to emails/messages,just give me some time.
I wish I hadn't.
So, if I don't answer my phone or don't respond to emails/messages,just give me some time.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Bloody hell.
As if things weren't complicated enough...
My leg gave out last night (or early this morning if you want to be technical.). I fell and hit my head on the edge of the tub hard enough to knock myself out. I came to about 45 minutes later then spent most of the night quite dizzy, vision blurry, and with one hell of a massive headache...FML.
My leg gave out last night (or early this morning if you want to be technical.). I fell and hit my head on the edge of the tub hard enough to knock myself out. I came to about 45 minutes later then spent most of the night quite dizzy, vision blurry, and with one hell of a massive headache...FML.
Black out in protest of SOPA and the Protect IP Act info.
What are SOPA and PIPA?
SOPA and PIPA represent two bills in the United States House of Representatives and the United States Senate respectively. SOPA is short for the "Stop Online Piracy Act," and PIPA is an acronym for the "Protect IP Act." ("IP" stands for "intellectual property.") In short, these bills are efforts to stop copyright infringement committed by foreign web sites, but, in our opinion, they do so in a way that actually infringes free expression while harming the Internet. Detailed information about these bills can be found in the Stop Online Piracy Act and PROTECT IP Act articles on Wikipedia, which are available during the blackout. GovTrack lets you follow both bills through the legislative process: SOPA on this page, and PIPA on this one. The Electronic Frontier Foundation, a non-profit organization dedicated to advocating for the public interest in the digital realm, has summarized why these bills are simply unacceptable in a world that values an open, secure, and free Internet. Via wiki
SOPA and PIPA represent two bills in the United States House of Representatives and the United States Senate respectively. SOPA is short for the "Stop Online Piracy Act," and PIPA is an acronym for the "Protect IP Act." ("IP" stands for "intellectual property.") In short, these bills are efforts to stop copyright infringement committed by foreign web sites, but, in our opinion, they do so in a way that actually infringes free expression while harming the Internet. Detailed information about these bills can be found in the Stop Online Piracy Act and PROTECT IP Act articles on Wikipedia, which are available during the blackout. GovTrack lets you follow both bills through the legislative process: SOPA on this page, and PIPA on this one. The Electronic Frontier Foundation, a non-profit organization dedicated to advocating for the public interest in the digital realm, has summarized why these bills are simply unacceptable in a world that values an open, secure, and free Internet. Via wiki
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
The anger lasted only moments giving way to a soul wrenching disappointment. The tears stopped hours ago, serving little purpose other than to redden my eyes and leave streaks of salt down my face. The hurt...that will be with me for a long time. I have trouble accepting that there is nothing I can do, or could have done differently. This isn't the first time, nor the second that I have been through this. I keep hoping...wishing...but it just doesn't change. As I have every time before this, I questioned myself relentlessly. Somehow it has to be my fault, right? I can't find that fault, unless it be that I care.
I don't know what to say, what to do. I'll be here, as always, but the rest is up to you.
I don't know what to say, what to do. I'll be here, as always, but the rest is up to you.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
The boiling point.
I feel like my mind was left in one of those large pasta pots on "simmer"....
I have been on the verge of boiling over for days, even my fucking horoscopes (yes, I needed a diversion that badly.) are warning that tomorrow may be the day. Let's see...about another 3 hours left of today (est), yeah...I might make it that long. Something has to give, or I'm getting a bigger hammer and there will be nothing left.
I have been on the verge of boiling over for days, even my fucking horoscopes (yes, I needed a diversion that badly.) are warning that tomorrow may be the day. Let's see...about another 3 hours left of today (est), yeah...I might make it that long. Something has to give, or I'm getting a bigger hammer and there will be nothing left.
Quote of the day...
"It's one of those foods where if someone makes it and it's on the plate, I take a bite...and...Oh, y-e-a-h, That's why I don't eat these..."
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Quick health update...
Spent the evening in the E.R. My leg started going numb accompinied by shooting pains earlier today. For those of you reading this who have no idea whats going on, I have broken L1 and L2 a few times and have DDD. It seems L2 has further deterioated causing it to shift slightly to the right. That in turn pinched a nerve. I have to go in for more tests and scans as I can get them set up, and may be looking at a procedjure called verboplasty. Basically they reinflate the vertabre. Good night all, I am going to enjoy the fact I am not in pain until those 4 units of delodid wear off!
Okay...I didn't believe this, but...
Yong Hao Chinese Buffet
(570) 455-8200
7 Valmont Plz Hazleton, PA 18201
Yes, They picked up the phone and said "Young ho buffet"....
Go Mr. Buffett!
Via Yahoo! News. WASHINGTON/BOSTON (Reuters) - Warren Buffett is willing to put his money where his mouth is, if only congressional Republicans would join him.
The American billionaire investor, in the new issue of Time magazine, says he would donate $1 to paying down the national debt for every dollar donated by a Republican in Congress. The only exception is Senate Republican leader Mitch McConnell - for whom Buffett said he would go $3-to-$1.
The idea stems from a New York Times opinion piece Buffett wrote last August in which he said the rich ought to pay more taxes. It sparked an instant controversy, with some Washington conservatives calling on the 81-year-old "Oracle of Omaha" to voluntarily pay extra.
McConnell said at the time that if Buffett felt "guilty" about paying too low a tax rate, he should "send in a check." This was quickly followed by introduction of a bill to give taxpayers an option on tax forms to make voluntary donations.
"It restores my faith in human nature to think that there are people who have been around Washington all this time and are not yet so cynical as to think that can't be solved by voluntary contributions," the Buffett told Time for an article hitting newsstands on Friday.
An aide to McConnell suggested that the Berkshire Hathaway CEO should expand his matching offer to President Barack Obama and his Democrats.
"Senator McConnell says that Washington should be smaller, rather than taxes getting bigger. And since some, like President Obama and Mr. Buffett want to pay higher taxes, Congress made it possible for them to call their own bluff and send in a check," said Don Stewart, McConnell's deputy chief of staff.
"So I look forward to Mr. Buffett matching a healthy batch of checks from those who actually want to pay higher taxes, including Congressional Democrats, the President and the Democratic National Committee," he added.
The jabs over voluntary payments come as higher taxes for the wealthy and extension of payroll tax breaks for middle-class Americans are becoming increasingly contentious issues for the 2012 presidential race. Obama is trying to paint Republicans as only favoring the wealthy, while Republicans are trying to brand the president as relying on tax hikes to fund excessive spending.
Buffett said in the Time interview the United States needed a tax system that favored people who were not born investors.
"We need a tax system that takes very good care of people who just really aren't as well adapted to the market system, and to capitalism, but are nevertheless just as good citizens, and are doing things that are of use in society," he said.
Buffett, who has raised money for President Barack Obama recently, also takes swings at Republican presidential candidates Mitt Romney and Newt Gingrich in the Time interview, criticizing Gingrich's track record and Romney's ties to the private equity business.
(Reporting By Ben Berkowitz and David Lawder; Editing by Eric Walsh)
The American billionaire investor, in the new issue of Time magazine, says he would donate $1 to paying down the national debt for every dollar donated by a Republican in Congress. The only exception is Senate Republican leader Mitch McConnell - for whom Buffett said he would go $3-to-$1.
The idea stems from a New York Times opinion piece Buffett wrote last August in which he said the rich ought to pay more taxes. It sparked an instant controversy, with some Washington conservatives calling on the 81-year-old "Oracle of Omaha" to voluntarily pay extra.
McConnell said at the time that if Buffett felt "guilty" about paying too low a tax rate, he should "send in a check." This was quickly followed by introduction of a bill to give taxpayers an option on tax forms to make voluntary donations.
"It restores my faith in human nature to think that there are people who have been around Washington all this time and are not yet so cynical as to think that can't be solved by voluntary contributions," the Buffett told Time for an article hitting newsstands on Friday.
An aide to McConnell suggested that the Berkshire Hathaway CEO should expand his matching offer to President Barack Obama and his Democrats.
"Senator McConnell says that Washington should be smaller, rather than taxes getting bigger. And since some, like President Obama and Mr. Buffett want to pay higher taxes, Congress made it possible for them to call their own bluff and send in a check," said Don Stewart, McConnell's deputy chief of staff.
"So I look forward to Mr. Buffett matching a healthy batch of checks from those who actually want to pay higher taxes, including Congressional Democrats, the President and the Democratic National Committee," he added.
The jabs over voluntary payments come as higher taxes for the wealthy and extension of payroll tax breaks for middle-class Americans are becoming increasingly contentious issues for the 2012 presidential race. Obama is trying to paint Republicans as only favoring the wealthy, while Republicans are trying to brand the president as relying on tax hikes to fund excessive spending.
Buffett said in the Time interview the United States needed a tax system that favored people who were not born investors.
"We need a tax system that takes very good care of people who just really aren't as well adapted to the market system, and to capitalism, but are nevertheless just as good citizens, and are doing things that are of use in society," he said.
Buffett, who has raised money for President Barack Obama recently, also takes swings at Republican presidential candidates Mitt Romney and Newt Gingrich in the Time interview, criticizing Gingrich's track record and Romney's ties to the private equity business.
(Reporting By Ben Berkowitz and David Lawder; Editing by Eric Walsh)
Article from theblaze.com
Companies supplying motor fuel will have to pay approximately $6.8 million in fines to the Treasury because they failed to “mix a special type of biofuel into their gasoline and diesel,” writes Matthew L. Wald of the New York Times.
However, the fine isn’t the worst part. The worst part is the fact that the refiners could have tried everything in their power to remain in compliance with standards set by the 2007 Energy Independence and Security Act, and it might not have mattered.
Why? Because there is not enough of this “special type of biofuel” to go around. In fact, with the exception of some scattered workshops and laboratories, “the ingredient, cellulosic biofuel, does not exist,” according to the Times report.
And by 2012, these companies are expected to pay even higher penalties for failing to include cellulosic biofuel in their product. Refiners were required to blend 6.6 million gallons into gasoline and diesel in 2011 and face a quota of 8.65 million gallons this year, according to the Times.
That seems like an awfully difficult task considering cellulosic biofuel doesn’t exist in the amounts required.
“It belies logic,” Charles T. Drevna, the president of the National Petrochemicals and Refiners Association, said of the 2011 quota, according to the Times. And raising the quota for 2012 when there is no production makes even less sense, he said.
The reasoning behind the Energy Independence and Security Act? Rules like the one ordering refiners to blend cellulosic biofuel with their product would help reduce greenhouse gas emission. However, even supporters of “green energy” are starting to admit that, yeah, the penalties are a little unreasonable.
“From a taxpayer/consumer standpoint, it doesn’t seem to make a lot of sense that we would require blenders to pay fines or fees or whatever for stuff that literally isn’t available,” said Dennis V. McGinn, a retired vice admiral who serves on the American Council on Renewable Energy.
Michael J. McAdams, executive director of the Advanced Biofuels Association, said the technology for turning biological material into hydrocarbons wasn’t advanced enough for commercial introduction when the 2007 bill was passed – and that they’ve only made minor advances since.
“There are some that are closer to the beaker and some that are closer to the barrel,” he said.
Wald reports:
“I am absolutely convinced from a national security perspective and an economic perspective that the renewable fuel standard, writ large, is the right thing to do,” said McGinn.
Milbourn maintains that the 8.65-million-gallon quota for “cellulosic ethanol” for 2012 was “reasonably attainable.” By setting a quota, she added, “we avoid a situation where real cellulosic biofuel production exceeds the mandated volume,” which would weaken demand, writes Wald.
So, let’s see if we got this straight: Congress passed a bill in 2007 requiring refiners to blend cellulosic biofuel with their gasoline and diesel. However, when the 2007 bill was passed, the companies making the biofuel were nowhere near able to produce it in the amounts required by the bill. And refiners are going to be fined approximately $6.8 million for failing to use a biofuel that “does not exist.”
Does any of this seem reasonable?
But wait! There’s something else. Wald reports:
Interesting.
However, the fine isn’t the worst part. The worst part is the fact that the refiners could have tried everything in their power to remain in compliance with standards set by the 2007 Energy Independence and Security Act, and it might not have mattered.
Why? Because there is not enough of this “special type of biofuel” to go around. In fact, with the exception of some scattered workshops and laboratories, “the ingredient, cellulosic biofuel, does not exist,” according to the Times report.
And by 2012, these companies are expected to pay even higher penalties for failing to include cellulosic biofuel in their product. Refiners were required to blend 6.6 million gallons into gasoline and diesel in 2011 and face a quota of 8.65 million gallons this year, according to the Times.
That seems like an awfully difficult task considering cellulosic biofuel doesn’t exist in the amounts required.
“It belies logic,” Charles T. Drevna, the president of the National Petrochemicals and Refiners Association, said of the 2011 quota, according to the Times. And raising the quota for 2012 when there is no production makes even less sense, he said.
The reasoning behind the Energy Independence and Security Act? Rules like the one ordering refiners to blend cellulosic biofuel with their product would help reduce greenhouse gas emission. However, even supporters of “green energy” are starting to admit that, yeah, the penalties are a little unreasonable.
Michael J. McAdams, executive director of the Advanced Biofuels Association, said the technology for turning biological material into hydrocarbons wasn’t advanced enough for commercial introduction when the 2007 bill was passed – and that they’ve only made minor advances since.
“There are some that are closer to the beaker and some that are closer to the barrel,” he said.
Wald reports:
The Texas renewable fuels company KiOR, for example, has broken ground on a plant in Columbus, Miss., that plans to start turning Southern yellow pine chips into gasoline and diesel components in the fourth quarter of 2012 at an annual rate of 11 million gallons, although Matthew Hargarten, a spokesman, said the quantity to be produced this year might be adjusted.But this has not deterred McGinn and Cathy Milbourn, an E.P.A. spokeswoman, from defending the energy statute.
“I am absolutely convinced from a national security perspective and an economic perspective that the renewable fuel standard, writ large, is the right thing to do,” said McGinn.
Milbourn maintains that the 8.65-million-gallon quota for “cellulosic ethanol” for 2012 was “reasonably attainable.” By setting a quota, she added, “we avoid a situation where real cellulosic biofuel production exceeds the mandated volume,” which would weaken demand, writes Wald.
So, let’s see if we got this straight: Congress passed a bill in 2007 requiring refiners to blend cellulosic biofuel with their gasoline and diesel. However, when the 2007 bill was passed, the companies making the biofuel were nowhere near able to produce it in the amounts required by the bill. And refiners are going to be fined approximately $6.8 million for failing to use a biofuel that “does not exist.”
Does any of this seem reasonable?
But wait! There’s something else. Wald reports:
One possible early source is the energy company Poet, a large producer of ethanol from corn kernels. The company is doing early work now on a site in Emmetsburg, Iowa, that is supposed to produce up to 25 million gallons a year of fuel alcohol beginning in 2013 from corn cobs.So, Congress passed a bill ordering refiners to add a certain type of biofuel to their product, and the only entities (discounting the defunct Range Fuels) that are anywhere near being able to produce it in the amounts needed are the privately owned Poet and a company owned in part by General Motors (Mascoma)?
And Mascoma, a company partly owned by General Motors, announced last month that it would get up to $80 million from the Energy Department to help build a plant in Kinross, Mich., that is supposed to make fuel alcohol from wood waste. Valero Energy, the oil company, and the State of Michigan are also providing funds.
Yet other cellulosic fuel efforts have faltered. A year ago, after it was offered more than $150 million in government grants, Range Fuels closed a commercial factory in Soperton, Ga., where pine chips were to be turned into fuel alcohols, because it ran into technological problems.
Interesting.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
I find myself starting the day under the weight of a great sadness. There is an ever growing list of things that I should have done or be doing for me, how ever the motivation is lacking.
Ironically I was just reminiscing with a friend on the times when I would remove myself from contact by unplugging the phone and/or removing the battery from my cell...My cell seems to be having issues this morning....
Maybe I should take this as a sign that I need to cross some of those items off that list.
To add to the random nature of this post, I am strongly considering getting away from the social network sites. The reasons, for now, are going to remain unwritten...Suffice to say that is yet another growing list. That means more posts here, as it should be.
Off to start on something, hoping I can shake this feeling...
Ironically I was just reminiscing with a friend on the times when I would remove myself from contact by unplugging the phone and/or removing the battery from my cell...My cell seems to be having issues this morning....
Maybe I should take this as a sign that I need to cross some of those items off that list.
To add to the random nature of this post, I am strongly considering getting away from the social network sites. The reasons, for now, are going to remain unwritten...Suffice to say that is yet another growing list. That means more posts here, as it should be.
Off to start on something, hoping I can shake this feeling...
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Over the past few days I have found myself caught in that whole new year and what needs to change thought pattern. Looking over the previous year, hindsight shows many of the stumbling blocks, weaknesses, and errors of way. I am very weary of the feeling of nothing being enough that permeated last year. I would like to be able to say that I have a plan to enact, but as always when it comes to self reflection, life has become chaotic.
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